Distracted

So, I haven't written a song about Christ lately... not until tonight anyways. Today I felt very distracted in my faith. I felt a quiet whisper in my heart all day saying, "Go pray and read my story," but I kept ignoring it. I found home work to do, I went to a BBQ for ten minutes, I tried painting... I was doing all of these things in an attempt to distract my self from God calling me. Even now as I type, I realize a prayer I have been praying all week has been "Lord, speak to me, I want to know you more." There he was answering me saying, "Anthony come find me in my Word." Crazy how easy we miss God. I finally gave in about 10:30 tonight and started to read through Mathew and still, even then I felt so distracted. I was reading the words on the on the page, but wasn't taking it in. I gave that up and started to journal. and this is what came out...

I've been distracted from what is good
Stability, meritocracy have been my king

I want to dive deeper and feel your holy fire rising up in me

Pick me up and send me on my way
give me a desire to love in your name
You have shown me your mercy
You have poured out your grace
And now it is my turn to give it away

It made me realize how easy we can get comfortable with where we are at in life. I believe there are seasons for that, seasons where God is asking us to slow down and enjoy life, but that doesn't mean that we should stop seeking him. I have been getting comfortable with where I am at, but I feel God asking more of me in response to what he has done for me on the cross.

I admit that I can be very lazy, but I have to trust that he will give me the strength and desire to be his hands and feet in this world. God doesn't need us. He is God... yet he has called us each by name to be his tools to show his love to this world. We are all broken and sick, yet Jesus wants to use us. It is pretty mind blowing to think that the God who made the stars, the painter of the sunsets, and the one who breathed me into the world wants to use me to carry out his will. I think that there is enough motivation to get me off of my butt and do something for him.

Blessings,

A